Big Boys Do Cry

Another valentines day
No cards behind the door,
Got my family and friends
But I’m wanting so much more.

I play my favorite song
For the millionth time
But every time I hear that sweet, soft voice
I always break down and cry.

Another Christmas day
And I’m once again alone,
Nobody to kiss
Underneath the mistletoe.

Whenever I need to talk
There’s nobody to talk to
So I end up doing things
That I know I shouldn’t do.

Contrary to popular belief
Big boys do cry,
I should know more than most
That big boys do cry.

My friends keep knocking on my door,
They keep calling on the phone,
I’ve never felt so alive
But I’ve never felt more alone.

Big boys do cry.

Cast From Heaven

I thought I’d died that night,
I never though anything again would feel right
As I lay all alone as you lay next door
I could hear your bed rat-a-tatting on the wall.

A coat for a pillow, all I could do was weep.
Right through the night, I never got any sleep
And I thought I never ever would again
But the sun always shines through in the end.

Knock knock knock how the walls did shake,
My heads still scarred from the noises you made.
My angel, you turned into the devil,
My angel, I hope they cast you from heaven.

Random Haiku #125

Hungry, hopeless eyes;

Empty, over-sized stomach.

Flies crawl, Buzzards wait.

Happy To See You

I see you at a party and my jaw drops to the floor,
I don’t know what to do;
Everyone turns to look at me to see what I will do,
I don’t even look at you;
But I’m happy to see you, to see you today,
I’m happy to see you – you blow me away.

You make me feel angry, you make me feel sad,
You make me want to stare at the sun;
But I’m happy to see you in a strange kind of way,
I’m happy to see you – you blow me away.

If You Leave Me Now

If you leave me now, don’t come knocking on my door again
If you leave me now, don’t go thinking we can still be friends
Because I won’t do that shit you see, I’m a man of integrity

If you walk out on me now, you’ll probably break my fragile heart in two
If you walk out on me now, no I don’t know what the hell I’ll do
Because I don’t get this shit you see, I’m a man of simplicity

Before you break my heart, tell me what I did that was so wrong
Before you break my heart, have the decency to say so long
Because I can’t take this shit you see, I’m a man of fragility

If you walk out on me now, I’ll hold my head up high and stand real tall
If you walk out on me now, I’ll probably act as though I don’t care at all
Because I can’t show my hand you see, I’m a man of great secrecy

If I leave you first, would you say I could have been the one?
If I leave you first, would you accuse me of spoiling all your fun?
Because I don’t get this shit you see, I’m a man of naivety

If you leave me now, don’t come knocking on my door again
If you leave me now, don’t go thinking we can still be friends
Because I wont do that shit you see, I’m a man of integrity

The Running Man Stoppeth

After a great week of workouts last week, I entered this week feeling optimistic and went to the gym on Tuesday for a running machine sessions and struggled my way through a tough 45 minute session but at the end my feet were really sore, they’d hurt from early on in the run but I didn’t want to quit but unfortunately I think that did me more harm than good. I badly blistered and subsequently burst said blisters and as I was compensating for the blisters I found I’d been running differently to how I normally do and have put stress on parts of my feet I wouldn’t normally and I’ve hurt the outside of my left foot and my left ankle so I’m back on the shelf to recuperate for a few days.

I don’t know what disappoints me most, the fact that I was just getting back into the swing of things or the fact I had to miss my first scheduled run …either way I’m pretty gutted.

I think the new trainers are to blame for the blisters and I’ve made arrangements to take them back as soon as soon as I am fit enough to run and try out replacements (I’ll take a copy of this photo with me!).

Random Haiku #124

I awoke sweating.

OMG I’m 31!

Life’s passing me by.

Random Haiku #123

Tears fall as we kiss,

Leaving her company hurts…

But I’ll be back soon.

The Running Man Returneth

I’ve finally got 2010’s running underway, starting with a gym session on Tuesday, followed by some 5-a-side football on Thursday and then a run today.

Tuesday’s session started with a light 5 minutes on the cross trainer to work up a sweat followed by 15 minutes of flat running on the running machine. I took a quick break before 2 more 15 minutes sets on the running machine but this time on a hill setting. I was surprised by how far I was able to run despite a lengthy lay off and felt few ill affects the next day.

The same however can’t be said for how I felt after football on Thursday. 5-a-side was actually just 4-a-side and that made it even harder and to make matters worse I forgot my trainers and had to use a grotty pair that I’ve been keeping in the car in case I had to walk in the snow. So after 1 hour of high energy football in bad trainers I struggled with my feet and I hurt from my calves down all evening afterward and again the following morning but I feel like I had a fantastic workout and I was really impressed by my fitness level.

I finished off the week with a 2.5 mile run this evening which included a very nasty half a mile hill climb and a quarter mile uphill sprint finish. I thought I’d run further which was disappointing but at least I got a run in and a good workout at that and most importantly I got back out there.

I’m hoping to get a similar schedule in place this week but instead of a standard run on the weekend I’m hoping to enter an informal 5km race in Cardiff with a couple of friends.

Random Haiku #122

Snow flakes fall slowly

Across the morning skyline

Like polystyrene.